Why did I even dare to change my life that was so good and stressfree already? I was able to learn not just from my school but in my life as well. Was it my parents' decision? Was it for a better future? Was I certain back then? I rather think not. This was what I felt and this was what I thought was right. Who knew before that my gut feel would be the best decision I have ever made? Who knew that my decision back then would decide my fate? Who knew that it would cast a heavy burden on me? Who knew that I would stand strong and learn? Who knew that it would change my life? Who knew? Only my honest self and Him did.
The moment I entered the vicinity for the very first school day, I had goosebumps. I had a feeling that I needed to prepare for war. I was like, "Hey! Am I going to enter this? Is this it? Will I even survive?" I thought of my old school and especially my friends that I left there.
It is not that we are rich but my family can afford to let me continue study in a private school, my old school. It was just walking distance from our house. I never tried going to school far from our house before. I never tried to sleep past 12. I never tried to wake up as early as 4. I was expecting for things like this to happen but my gut feel had driven me to the path of my life, CAVSCI.
The difference in aura and the awkwardness were there. It was so hard to jive in with the environment that I just felt for the first time. I almost knew no one. It was so stressful right away, the first day; the next day and all the days that followed. I told myself, "Did I really enter a warzone? If I would just take refugee, why here? It's more peaceful there. It's better."
But still, I am here. I suffered a lot. I still remember a point that one of our first year teachers said that I didn't pass the project she required but I knew I did. I was teary-eyed back then but I knew I should not cry. We found the project and I stayed strong. That is what I learned. I should stay strong no matter how disasters come and storm my life.
Now, I am proud to be a third year student here. So many hardships that I knew before I enter the school would have driven me crazy already; but I just let them pass by. Two years have passed. Those goosebumps are still implanted in my mind. Every lesson I learned are still in my mind and my heart. I hope the lessons would stay intact forever.
Life is all about staying strong, being prepared for all obstacles. Why did I even dare to change my life that was so good already? It is because I would not learn something so important for living so easy. I needed to learn from the new experiences.
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