The Mind Adapting to Stress

Why did I even dare to change my life that was so good and stressfree already? I was able to learn not just from my school but in my life as well. Was it my parents' decision? Was it for a better future? Was I certain back then? I rather think not. This was what I felt and this was what I thought was right. Who knew before that my gut feel would be the best decision I have ever made? Who knew that my decision back then would decide my fate? Who knew that it would cast a heavy burden on me? Who knew that I would stand strong and learn? Who knew that it would change my life? Who knew? Only my honest self and Him did.

The moment I entered the vicinity for the very first school day, I had goosebumps. I had a feeling that I needed to prepare for war. I was like, "Hey! Am I going to enter this? Is this it? Will I even survive?" I thought of my old school and especially my friends that I left there.

It is not that we are rich but my family can afford to let me continue study in a private school, my old school. It was just walking distance from our house. I never tried going to school far from our house before. I never tried to sleep past 12. I never tried to wake up as early as 4. I was expecting for things like this to happen but my gut feel had driven me to the path of my life, CAVSCI.

The difference in aura and the awkwardness were there. It was so hard to jive in with the environment that I just felt for the first time. I almost knew no one. It was so stressful right away, the first day; the next day and all the days that followed.  I told myself, "Did I really enter a warzone? If I would just take refugee, why here? It's more peaceful there. It's better."

But still, I am here. I suffered a lot. I still remember a point that one of our first year teachers said that I didn't pass the project she required but I knew I did. I was teary-eyed back then but I knew I should not cry. We found the project and I stayed strong. That is what I learned. I should stay strong no matter how disasters come and storm my life.

Now, I am proud to be a third year student here. So many hardships that I knew before I enter the school would have driven me crazy already; but I just let them pass by. Two years have passed. Those goosebumps are still implanted in my mind. Every lesson I learned are still in my mind and my heart. I hope the lessons would stay intact forever.

Life is all about staying strong, being prepared for all obstacles. Why did I even dare to change my life that was so good already? It is because I would not learn something so important for living so easy. I needed to learn from the new experiences.

No backing down!

Shakepeare's Hamlet was really priceless, specially Hamlet's "To be or not to be. That is the question." Even being an  unrealistic play back in the 1600s, it has mirrored the reality in the present time. All about how revenge fails every time and that it won't do any good. But what was Hamlet really pertaining to?

Hamlet was all hesitant. While he was stating "To be or not to be", he was thinking about if he still needs to live or not. He keeps on insisting on himself that life is too hard; that it is full of hardships and it is too hard to live in to. Life is painful and full of hardships but it is full of joy and fun experiences.

In short, life is full of decisions, no matter how you hesitate. Either you choose the wrong path or the right path, it depends on oneself. Life is full of ups and downs. No matter the path, experiences still come and enter our young mind until it becomes mature. Learn from the wrong doings you have done, don't haunt yourself and repeat everything to yourself like someone who is guilty from murder, get over it. You can't rewrite the past. It has been done. Learning is everything.

I heard that most of the time, the first decision you make is most likely the correct one. But because of hesitations, people always change their decisions. Regrets always come after what happens. But that doesn't end it all. Changes are the only things permanent. Take advantage over it and become stronger. Fight and overcome problems but learn while you take one step at a time.

There was a time somewhere back when I was a first year student, I almost gave up. I didn't know what to do. Should I stop this? What will be the best solution? How am I gonna overcome this? How should I balance my time? There were so many things that bothered my young mind back then. Seriously, every time I heard the word assignment, I was being depressed and depressed as the day passes by. My guilty conscience even haunted me before because I left my friends back at my old school.

BUT, here I am standing strong. Standing through the winds against me. Living my life to the fullest, learning everything so fast. I knew it from the start. My decision back then was going to be a huge turning point in my life. I hesitated, but I went through my decision. I didn't turn it down. I didn't back down. Still no regrets, I knew I was right!

Such fun, I hope it will never run out.

Bottomless

"Bottomless"

Different experiences mount to good learning
In a way that all of us find it enjoying
The well-worn lessons became more interesting
Until now, the English time was never boring

 In the future, to study most of Shakespeare's plays
Even if we experience lots of haggard days
I know I'll still come back with a smile on my face
Because I know I have learned in so many ways

Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet was magnificent.
Their love between each other is omnipotent
Their only problem is that they are impotent
against their own families who are innocent

Studying the hard Idiomatic Expression
has implanted in my mind; a huge confusion
hiding its meaning behind my field of vision.
It's hard to understand its deep apprehension

Even the verbals which has too many functions
has given my mind too many interruptions
the entry of its functions in our discussions
Gerund, infinitives; sudden revelations

Perhaps the 60 minutes a day is too fast.
To bethink the tenses; future, present or past
nor to learn about affixes which is too vast
but she taught it superbly like lessons amassed.

Everything she has done has merit a reason.
The spelling words she gives are not just burden.
Everything we learn are not just for prison
It has its purpose; for us to be well-driven.